Sarah's DR - Episode 4

[Sarah Hrejsa]

::Mourns for my double strength long range taser::

I WANTED TO SHOOT SOME PEOPLE DEAD DEAD DEAD TONIGHT!!!


But it will all work out fine, I'm just mad that I was so stupid and didn't shoot Sheila right away. I mean, come on. I saw that my weapon would disable theirs for an hour and I just didn't hit her. Maybe the fact that she didn't hit me first also lulled me into a false sense of security. But...of course they wanted immunity so we would lose the challenge. The plan was to get Seb out and that's what will possibly happen if Jun wins HOH. They are in charge (Nathan and Sheila and their big ass fucking tasers, that is) and they will leave Jun alive last to ensure she wins HOH and puts up Seb and Howie.

Parker thinks Jun will put up Eric and Nat but I can see him putting up Howie. Let's hope not. But, if he does and Howie stays up on the block, I think I can convince Parker to save him with me. And if I can't... c'est la vie. Howie, you know I wanted to go to the end with you but it's not my fault you won't talk to people!!! That's why they want to vote you out and it's such a stupid reason when you are a smart guy!!

I really thought about my power tonight and what would happen if I used it. Nothing eventful. I told Howie that I will use it on Sheila when the time is right, but to make it work I have to make sure Nathan is gone. Otherwise, he'll just either hijack the eviction or if he's in the same house he'll save her with POV. It's going to be hard to get both Nathan and Sheila out and if Seb goes she gets to name a new person to use her power on. If she doesn't tell me who, that's bad. I want Seb to stay in the game so I know exactly what Sheila's power will do.

This is so complicated and tricky...but the main issue here is that Sheila and Nathan are both so powerful...and Howie wants to jump the gun and force some stuff to happen. I think we need to chill and let the power players take out some other weak links and just look for opportunities to get one of them out. I am glad I have Parker on my side because he's pretty laid back and I know he realizes who needs to be taken out.

We'll see how this HOH plays out and who leaves....and deal with next week when it's time.

[Sarah Hrejsa]

So Howie and Natalie up - no surprise here. I was happy to hear Jun say that she didn't want to put Howie up but only did it because she thought he would save Seb. If that's true, it's a good thing because I do not want Howie to be hated or for everyone to want him out. LOL I guess this is a far cry from my Howie/Chris hate post in the last episode, but I can't help it. I want it to work out so I am willing it to... *sigh* Buffy you'll never learn, will you? PLAY for YOURSELF not others!!!

POV - The disguised faces were pretty tough - especially Jun and Karen!! Although, after results were posted and I saw that #15 was Karen, I TOTALLY saw it! Either way, it couldn't have worked out better. I worked with Howie and we decided to have him change one answer. I think he changed two but it worked in his favor so that was great. I also shared answers with Parker and I thought he would have it but he made a mistake and submitted Eric twice.

SO, Howie wins and can take himself off and Eric goes up. Perfect scenario. Howie has already told Natalie that he will vote to keep her. Parker told me tonight that he thinks keeping Nat/Seb in the game is smart because it keeps Sheila's power tied up with her. Now all I have to decide is, do I cast the one vote against Seb to let Sheila/Nathan know I was loyal or do I say - well, it was going to be 2 to 1 so I didn't want to be the odd vote? Choice, choices. I am thinking the latter may be best because then I can honestly tell Seb I am keeping him and hope to keep him on my side and against Sheila/Nathan/Dustin.

The Buffy in me wants to force things to happen right now, expedite the plans to take out the power players: Nathan and SHE but the Parker in me wants to chill out and smoke a joint (haha I feel like such a dork saying that) and just go with the flow until there is a reason to panic. And the Howie in me wants to stir some shit up and make some moves....but those can wait.

Not a bad results for this round - hopefully getting rid of Eric who is a sweet guy and may have been an asset later on, but also wanted to be in an exile island alliance with Sheila. She has enough allies - and she wins everything so fuck that!

I also have to start thinking about who I want to send back over next week. Dustin comes to mind because I want to keep Parker/Howie in the house. The problem is, if we lose immunity who goes next week? If Nathan comes over he would surely put up Seb/Howie and we have another scramble to win the veto. This next week will be critical to win immunity. They need to get rid of some of that dead weight in Big She's house. Actually, maybe I'll send Seb over to her so they can fight it out....after all, I promised.