Post by Eric Stein on Apr 7, 2009 19:09:03 GMT -5
How did I get here? It's a simple question, but it's one that I've been asking myself a lot over the past few days. More than any other, this week in the Big Brother house has been nothing short of a roller coaster -- one filled with so many ups and downs that I think I'm getting whiplash. But I'll see if I can't figure this whole thing out . . .
I guess it all started at the Head of Household competition for this week. As soon as I read the details of the HoH competition, I pointed out to my team that we had to target Sheila with the tazer, but they didn't listen and decided to attack Nathan instead -- which was a bad move that ultimately made us lose the game despite the fact that Brigantia was down two members. Of course, that is really making the competition sound much easier than it actually was; once we realized that Andraste was going to lose, there was a lot of scrambling to talk to the members of Brigantia, mostly because they had the power to basically pick who became the next Head of Household.
Obviously, I wasn't picked -- but, to be honest, I am completely fine with that, because if I were Head of Household this week I likely would have been forced to put up Jun, who I promised at the last minute of the competition to not put up as a safety net so that I wouldn't get put up if she herself won -- and wouldn't you know it, that's just what happened.
I felt pretty good about myself after not being nominated, and I have to be honest when I say that I kind of threw the Power of Veto competition (although I did get more correct than I thought I would) because doing so would put me in the precocious situation of being forced to choose to keep my word to Jun and not use the Power of Veto on Natalie and using it on Natalie, who I have had a partnership with since the early stages of this game.
Unfortunately for me, Howie -- the one person in my house that I don't have at least a decent relationship with -- won the Power of Veto. Even worse, I was nominated as the replacement, though I have been assured -- once again -- that I am merely a pawn and that Jun wants Natalie to go home. I am counting on Parker to vote to keep me, but Sarah I'm on the fence with and I am genuinely assuming that Howie will vote to evict me, which makes things slightly messy.
So here I am, an hour away from the eviction ceremony, anxiously awaiting to hear news of my fate. The plot thickened just a few moments ago when Natalie, in what is no doubt a desperate attempt to save herself, tried to convince me that she has some sort of special power that will advance us in the game, but this power would require me to quit the game and even I am not stupid enough to see through such a ploy (even though she did present a well-made, though undeniably fake, photograph to support the figment of her imagination). I wish that it hadn't come down to Natalie and I, but now that I see her true colors I can't say that I am 100% sad to see her go -- assuming that she does. I don't know how to explain it, but I just have this feeling that my housemates will see tonight as a great opportunity to get me out of the house.
If I do get sent home tonight, I will obviously be pretty upset but I will accept it with grace. In the event that I do go, I thought that it might be beneficial to do a "State of Big Brother" address by yours truly, just so that I can remember exactly how I got to the point I'm at, so here it goes . . .
At the moment, I have a lot of friendships and probably a few "unspoken partnerships" so to speak, but at this point in time the alliance to which I am most loyal is the threesome of Parker, Nathan, and I. After tonight, my alliance with Natalie is going to be gone, meaning that the only person that I have a genuine spoken agreement with is Sheila. To be honest, I became aligned with Sheila because we seem to get along decently and she is a great competitor, but at the same time I am remaining vigilant of her because of the fact that I know she likes to play the game as hard as possible. I may have to look to an alliance with Jun, because although we aren't exactly the closest of friends she is still someone that I have a close relationship to and hasn't done anything to directly betray my trust.
If I do survive though, it is absolutely critical that I win something individually, and soon. The fact that I have yet to be either Head of Household or the person holding the Power of Veto isn't a terrible thing because it means I haven't had to make enemies, but I think that the battle lines are certainly being drawn in this Warzone, and if I don't step up to the front lines soon then I think I can pretty much consider myself KIA in this game.
I guess it all started at the Head of Household competition for this week. As soon as I read the details of the HoH competition, I pointed out to my team that we had to target Sheila with the tazer, but they didn't listen and decided to attack Nathan instead -- which was a bad move that ultimately made us lose the game despite the fact that Brigantia was down two members. Of course, that is really making the competition sound much easier than it actually was; once we realized that Andraste was going to lose, there was a lot of scrambling to talk to the members of Brigantia, mostly because they had the power to basically pick who became the next Head of Household.
Obviously, I wasn't picked -- but, to be honest, I am completely fine with that, because if I were Head of Household this week I likely would have been forced to put up Jun, who I promised at the last minute of the competition to not put up as a safety net so that I wouldn't get put up if she herself won -- and wouldn't you know it, that's just what happened.
I felt pretty good about myself after not being nominated, and I have to be honest when I say that I kind of threw the Power of Veto competition (although I did get more correct than I thought I would) because doing so would put me in the precocious situation of being forced to choose to keep my word to Jun and not use the Power of Veto on Natalie and using it on Natalie, who I have had a partnership with since the early stages of this game.
Unfortunately for me, Howie -- the one person in my house that I don't have at least a decent relationship with -- won the Power of Veto. Even worse, I was nominated as the replacement, though I have been assured -- once again -- that I am merely a pawn and that Jun wants Natalie to go home. I am counting on Parker to vote to keep me, but Sarah I'm on the fence with and I am genuinely assuming that Howie will vote to evict me, which makes things slightly messy.
So here I am, an hour away from the eviction ceremony, anxiously awaiting to hear news of my fate. The plot thickened just a few moments ago when Natalie, in what is no doubt a desperate attempt to save herself, tried to convince me that she has some sort of special power that will advance us in the game, but this power would require me to quit the game and even I am not stupid enough to see through such a ploy (even though she did present a well-made, though undeniably fake, photograph to support the figment of her imagination). I wish that it hadn't come down to Natalie and I, but now that I see her true colors I can't say that I am 100% sad to see her go -- assuming that she does. I don't know how to explain it, but I just have this feeling that my housemates will see tonight as a great opportunity to get me out of the house.
If I do get sent home tonight, I will obviously be pretty upset but I will accept it with grace. In the event that I do go, I thought that it might be beneficial to do a "State of Big Brother" address by yours truly, just so that I can remember exactly how I got to the point I'm at, so here it goes . . .
At the moment, I have a lot of friendships and probably a few "unspoken partnerships" so to speak, but at this point in time the alliance to which I am most loyal is the threesome of Parker, Nathan, and I. After tonight, my alliance with Natalie is going to be gone, meaning that the only person that I have a genuine spoken agreement with is Sheila. To be honest, I became aligned with Sheila because we seem to get along decently and she is a great competitor, but at the same time I am remaining vigilant of her because of the fact that I know she likes to play the game as hard as possible. I may have to look to an alliance with Jun, because although we aren't exactly the closest of friends she is still someone that I have a close relationship to and hasn't done anything to directly betray my trust.
If I do survive though, it is absolutely critical that I win something individually, and soon. The fact that I have yet to be either Head of Household or the person holding the Power of Veto isn't a terrible thing because it means I haven't had to make enemies, but I think that the battle lines are certainly being drawn in this Warzone, and if I don't step up to the front lines soon then I think I can pretty much consider myself KIA in this game.