Week 5

[Howie Gordon]

Lol, ok, so Natalie stayed which was the plan all along, and then we threw HOH, which was the plan all along, but unfortunetly we couldnt win HOH, and that pretty much fucked us over, but oddly enough, im probably in a better position than i would have been if Natalie had left this week.

If Natalie had left, i would have had Sheila and Nathan coming after me, and Sarah would have been stuck in the middle, and yeah im sure she probably would have tried to kept me safe as best she could, BUT she wasnt gonna risk her position with Nathan and Sheila to make sure i survived another week.

Thats why this plan was so important, i kept telling Sarah that the whole reason we needed to keep Natalie was to cause chaos in the game, well the REAL reason I needed to keep Natalie was that it kept me off Nathan and Sheila's hit list at least for another week.

Yeah it would have been nice to win HOH and kidnap Sheila to get rid of her, but it didnt work out that way so now i have to worry about surviving week to week, and if that means using Sarah as a human shield for a week, then so be it, im playing this game for myself baby.

[Howie Gordon]

Buffy Zanzibar (1:21:11 AM): "Evan/Nathan" (10:18:11 PM): i was just wary of you and chris being too close
"Evan/Nathan" (10:18:19 PM): so like.. i would have tried to get him out
"Evan/Nathan" (10:18:20 PM): not you
Buffy Zanzibar (10:18:33 PM): well I figured that with us hosting superiority that would be the assumption
"Evan/Nathan" (10:18:44 PM): and the fact that you told him everything



Exhibit A, on how i bought myself some more time in this game.

Now it looks like Sarah is collecting all of the information she's got on Nathan and Sheila and using it against them, seems like shes gonna mount an army against the two of them... AWESOME.

Every minute my name slips further and further down the hit list, all I gotta do is pull one HOH out of my ass and i might actually do some damage in this game.

[Howie Gordon]

Well this week turned out to be a clusterfuck, and the worst case scenario played itself out, but the bottom line is, if I hadnt convinced Sarah to make this move, then i would have been gone this week regardless. Now it looks like shes gonna go and ive got at least another week to try to pull a rabbit out of my ass.

I know Sarah is all pissed off about Natalie screwing us over, but the bottom line is this week didnt have anything to do with Natalie, no matter how much she tries to make everyone believe so. We put a plan in motion to get rid of Sheila or Nathan and for us to accomplish that we had to win HOH and we didnt. It was a good plan, i stand behind it we just didnt execute.

We had a chance to stay alive and fight for another week if i had one veto, well i failed, she was working on the veto with me and could have given me some answers, but she only gave me one.

I know that Natalie is trying to make herself the focus of the week, but the bottom line is, if we didnt win either of those competitions we knew we were fucked going in. We lost both of them and here we sit, bottom line.

And now i have Sarah boo hooing to me last night about what a mistake she made going against her friends, well ive got news for you, you said to me going in that you wanted to work with me this game, i was your number 1. If you wanted to keep me in the game, you had to make the move you did, if you wanted to sell me out and stay with Nathan and Sheila, then thats a legit game move and if you regret it, then you should have done it. But dont expect me to feel sorry for your ass when OUR plan didnt work out and your "friends" now hate you when it was my ass on the line this week if you would have stuck with them. Jesus Fucking Christ.