Episode 6

[Nathan Marlow]

WEEK SIX

IMMUNITY/HOH COMPETITION

Fuck all y'all.

Seriously. It's jury time and all the people left in this game are driving me absolutely insane. Fuck you Jun, for voting to keep Sarah after you went on and on about how you wanted her to go and that Howie should stay since he's nothing. I don't care that Sarah is still here, but you lied to me, and you can say all you want that you would have told me if I had been around, but I know you wouldn't have, and the only reason you didn't is because you got caught by other people's trick. Which leads me to Natalie. Fuck you Natalie, for being one of the most annoying, over-bearing people I have ever encountered. Seriously, cool your jets! You don't need to ask me 10 zillion times to send you to the other house. It ain't happenin'! And also for stooping so low to hand out your password to prove yourself. And yeah, fuck you too Sheila, for giving in to his trick, when it obviously is against the rules. Why do something stupid like that? This better not screw everything up. Ugh. And fuck you Will, for being immune and being a complete wild card. And fuck you Sarah, for putting yours spell back on Jun. And fuck you Parker, for not ever coming on AIM so we could talk about who we would send. And fuck you Diane, for playing such a poor rendition of the real Diane. And fuck you Daniele, for never coming around so we can talk trash about all these schmucks. No fuck you to the Chelsbot though. : )

ANYWAYS, Sarah stayed, Jun got sent away, Will got sent in, and we are now faced with our last team immunity challenge. Having just 4 people in our house, none of which I trust, and having one of them be immune, makes me really want to just win immunity. It would be a very dangerous situation, and if everything went just so, someone could be eliminated without a vote after everyone else became immune. So yeah, no thanks. Even with my power, there would be no guarantee. Not to mention I don't trust enough people in the other house either. Luckily, it sounds like there is some throwing goin' on in the Brigantia house. Jun and She had a big falling out so Jun wants to go after She since she has immunity and can't be touched by Sheila. So she is supposedly going to turn in a really crappy score and give her real words to Parker. She is saying she has a really good score, but knowing her, she could have a lot of mistakes or just be bluffing. I don't know. Hopefully Big She pulls out another victory though, and if not she can go for the veto. Even though her and I are not on the same page all the time, she is more often than anyone else, and she just has such a huge target on her ass that I think might go over to me after she left. Also, I would not be having as much fun in this game without her. She saves my sanity a bit too I think. And if we do somehow lose, I think I have a great shot at the HoH. But hopefully everyone on our team just sends in a good score and we will win and there will be no worries for me this week.

[Nathan Marlow]

NOMINATIONS

So yeah, we did indeed up winning the immunity challenge so final 8 for me! Everyone on our tribe just really wanted to win and that's what did it for us. Jun told me she was actually going to try and win so she could be the HoH that takes out Sheila, but then I reminded her that they have to lose for her to be HoH and if she's not HoH then Parker would get to be immune too since she thought he would win. Yeah, he didn't win. BIG SHE COMIN' THROUGH BIG ONCE AGAIN! Of course her winning caused a shit-storm with all the controversy goin' on. I feel like the right call was made though and I just wish everyone would just move on and let the game play out how it should. I ain't gonna dwell on that all that much here though cuz it's all really stupid.

Sheila nominated Parker and Diane for eviction, which was a pretty obvious call. Daniele is the only other person in this game that hasn't pissed Sheila off she says. But yeah, Jun is definitely balls to the wall against Sheila now and vice versa... that makes Sheila have what, like 3 number one targets? Jun is doing everything in her power to take her down though and really wants Parker to come off the block. If he goes, the opposition would be greatly weakened. I really don't know what I want to happen this week though. Diane needs to just go cuz she sucks, but the smarter call would be for Parker to go, even if though I like him a lot. It is out of my hands this week though so I'll just let it all play out. Jun is making sure I am in with them though for the future, and I pretty much just agree to whatever she says, they can find out my lies I don't care, but it's just easier this way. I basically handle Natalie the same way. Hopefully all these idiots just eat each other alive. I know people already think of me as a threat, but hopefully all of this can overshadow that. I will just take things how they come and just use them as an advantage. The only people who really have an ounce of loyalty of mine at this point are Big She and Dani.

[Nathan Marlow]

VETO COMPETITION/CEREMONY

Somehow Jun beat Sheila in the veto.. and yeah I don't know how to feel about that. It was obvious that Jun would use the veto on Parker and she did. She had told me though that she would only use the veto on him if he promised to keep Daniele. I mean, I do like Parker, but he is probably going to be causing some problems for me here and he is a huge threat. But at the same time, I hate inactives... or less active players, whatever, and now the two most inactive people are on the block, so that is a good thing because one will leave the game. It's gotta be Diane for me though. She has nothing to offer me, while Daniele will be a vote for me and Big She. I really did want to use my power this week, so I decided to feel out how Sarah would vote if I did that, even though I was already leaning towards not using it. She only confirmed that I shouldn't. She never flat out said that she would vote for Daniele, but it was obvious. I am just glad she didn't try and fake me out or pull any bullshit. I really do think she wants to make things right after the stunt she pulled. We had a really good took and hopefully she can help me out in the future. I don't know if it will happen, but it definitely is possible for us to maybe start working again. I know, how stupid of me, but I can't help but believe her. Don't get me wrong though, she is a long way from being a close ally for me. I think I am really going to need her on my side even if just slightly in the future though, because the sides are pretty much clearly forming. Honestly... it might be smarter to jump ship from Sheila and get in with the others, but at the same time, if I helped them get rid of her, I don't believe I would be safe with any of them. I really think my best option is to stick with Big She, and maybe Natalie and hopefully plow them all down and steamroll to the end. I want to sit the fence, but I honestly just don't think it's possible. They know I am with Sheila, and if any of them won the next HoH, I don't know why they wouldn't nominate the two of us together. So yeah, I don't think I have any room to throw competitions and let other people win and knock each other out. Hopefully Daniele will still be around next week as a little cushion for us. I'm not confident at all that she will be at this point. In a discussion with Sheila she really did think that Jun might turn around and take Daniele out despite their friendship since she is close with us, but from all the things Jun had been saying me, I was inclined to think she wouldn't do that. Then she came to me today thinking she should since she is so inactive. I tried my best to dissuade her from doing this. I totally understand that it sucks that her interest isn't really here, but despite anything Diane might say, she hasn't done jackshit either. So yeah, I just tried to make sure Jun knew that and that Daniele hates Natalie as much as anyone, so we should jut let her stick around. She agreed to all of this, so this will be the test. If Jun goes and votes Daniele out now, it is absolutely on. I will be gunning for that HoH key just so I can put that bitch up. I tried to give her a chance, but if she lies to my face again, it is over. Now we just have to wait and see...

[Nathan Marlow]

CONVERSATION WITH SARAH

EvDogg87 (12:02:49 AM): so... lets assume dustin uses his veto on parker and daniele goes up
EvDogg87 (12:02:58 AM): if i used my power who would you vote for?
Buffy Zanzibar (12:03:09 AM): Hey
Buffy Zanzibar (12:03:19 AM): who do you want to keep?
EvDogg87 (12:03:39 AM): well supposedly diane is close with seb
EvDogg87 (12:03:46 AM): but ive never really seen any evidence of that
Buffy Zanzibar (12:03:46 AM): sorry - I already know this answer lol
EvDogg87 (12:03:58 AM): but yeah i never talk to her anyways
Buffy Zanzibar (12:04:21 AM): well I am not going to pretend I haven't heard that you and Daniele are BFFs
EvDogg87 (12:04:32 AM): no i know everyone knows that
Buffy Zanzibar (12:04:36 AM): whether it's true or not - that is the rumor
EvDogg87 (12:04:40 AM): although i barely talk to her about this game
Buffy Zanzibar (12:04:44 AM): okay
EvDogg87 (12:04:45 AM): she's never around really
EvDogg87 (12:04:57 AM): we were close in secrecy though
Buffy Zanzibar (12:04:59 AM): so everyone kinda assumes you would use the power to save her if she's up
EvDogg87 (12:05:25 AM): and what would you do?
Buffy Zanzibar (12:05:37 AM): do you want me to vote Diane out?
EvDogg87 (12:05:44 AM): i would
Buffy Zanzibar (12:07:57 AM): well, I don't think I have ever spoken to Diane
Buffy Zanzibar (12:09:27 AM): I guess my concern is that you, Sheila and Daniele will team up (and Seb blech) once we merge and I will be a target
Buffy Zanzibar (12:10:10 AM): but since I talked to you the other night I kind of feel better about that...I would just like to know where you stand
EvDogg87 (12:10:49 AM): well i want seb out for one thing, am i leading him on? yes
Buffy Zanzibar (12:10:59 AM): good - he deserves it
EvDogg87 (12:11:17 AM): and yeah i understand your concern and i was pretty much already planning on not using my power anyways
EvDogg87 (12:12:24 AM): but um yeah its honestly just really hard for me to say with you after everything that happened, on a personal level nothing has changed, but in the game it's hard to know
EvDogg87 (12:12:39 AM): you definitely aren't an immediate target of mine
EvDogg87 (12:12:48 AM): long run? i don't know
Buffy Zanzibar (12:13:06 AM): okay - fair enough
Buffy Zanzibar (12:14:52 AM): Seb is supposed to be with Diane right?
EvDogg87 (12:15:00 AM): supposedly
EvDogg87 (12:15:15 AM): ive never really heard anything straight from seb or seen anything that would lead me to believe that though
Buffy Zanzibar (12:15:44 AM): but you and Sheila have gotten him to do what you want in the game so far - so I guess you could do it again
EvDogg87 (12:16:37 AM): lol i dont know if i would say that
EvDogg87 (12:16:58 AM): he's definitely really gung-ho on getting daniele out
Buffy Zanzibar (12:18:54 AM): I know wanting you to trust me is asking a lot after what happened. But I was never going after you - and I still don't want to go after you. I mean, yeah, I did expose some things you didn't want exposed....but it's not like it wasn't obvious to everyone that you and Sheila were together anyway.
Buffy Zanzibar (12:21:11 AM): And I have nothing against Daniele, but to just expect me to help save a close ally for you when you tell me that you may not be after me short-term but most likely would be in a couple of weeks...it kind of makes me sound like an idiot to do that.
EvDogg87 (12:21:46 AM): no i wasnt expecting you to, just wondering where your head was at with the whole thing
Buffy Zanzibar (12:21:53 AM): lol okay
Buffy Zanzibar (12:22:07 AM): ugh
EvDogg87 (12:22:28 AM): but yeah i think we should just like... see where things go, and maybe we can get back to where we used to be
Buffy Zanzibar (12:22:55 AM): you mean trying to get that old "feeling" back like when we were in love? :-P
Buffy Zanzibar (12:23:01 AM): lol that just sounded so funny
EvDogg87 (12:23:03 AM): haha
EvDogg87 (12:23:09 AM): back when your ass was bangin'
Buffy Zanzibar (12:23:23 AM): it's still bangin'
EvDogg87 (12:23:36 AM): debatable
Buffy Zanzibar (12:23:43 AM): can't I be a hot villain? geez
Buffy Zanzibar (12:24:24 AM): so you want Seb out and then what?
EvDogg87 (12:24:53 AM): haha i guess villains are better when they are hot
Buffy Zanzibar (12:25:00 AM): exactly
Buffy Zanzibar (12:25:21 AM): that's my point - in fact my ass is probably better now than when I was a nice girl :-P
EvDogg87 (12:26:39 AM): haha alright i guess i see your point
EvDogg87 (12:26:56 AM): sarah was such a goody two-shoes on the show too
Buffy Zanzibar (12:28:21 AM): yeah
Buffy Zanzibar (12:28:41 AM): okay so I think I may be down like 2nd or 3rd on your list
EvDogg87 (12:28:54 AM): like my bootlist?
Buffy Zanzibar (12:28:58 AM): yes
Buffy Zanzibar (12:30:28 AM): the thing about you that I like is I don't think you will just go around lying to people and so what you omit is just as important as what you say
Buffy Zanzibar (12:31:40 AM): lol I guess I'm not going to get what I want here - but I do appreciate you not stringing me alone like Seb :-)
Buffy Zanzibar (12:31:41 AM): brb
EvDogg87 (12:31:50 AM): haha well k
EvDogg87 (12:32:08 AM): but yeah if i had to make a bootlist... i dont know who i would put after seb and diane
EvDogg87 (12:32:33 AM): i dont think it would be you quite yet though, hard to say really
EvDogg87 (12:32:47 AM): im so indecisive : )
Buffy Zanzibar (12:36:10 AM): but is Diane just on it because she is on the block now?
Buffy Zanzibar (12:36:24 AM): and I doubt you are indecisive :-P
Buffy Zanzibar (12:36:35 AM): how old are you?
EvDogg87 (12:36:37 AM): no diane is always on it
Buffy Zanzibar (12:36:41 AM): if you don't mind my asking
EvDogg87 (12:36:48 AM): and yes i am always this indecisive, ask my friends
EvDogg87 (12:36:50 AM): i'm 21
Buffy Zanzibar (12:36:51 AM): lol
Buffy Zanzibar (12:37:06 AM): okay - because when I talk to you I feel like you're the older one lol
EvDogg87 (12:37:24 AM): haha i guess that's a good thing?
Buffy Zanzibar (12:37:28 AM): I am very indecisive
Buffy Zanzibar (12:37:32 AM): well it just means you're mature
Buffy Zanzibar (12:37:37 AM): and I'm not :-P
EvDogg87 (12:39:15 AM): haha sure
Buffy Zanzibar (12:39:40 AM): well if I was mature I wouldn't have fights with a 15 yr old lol
EvDogg87 (12:41:24 AM): good point
EvDogg87 (12:41:29 AM): what do you do for a living anyways?
Buffy Zanzibar (12:41:37 AM): you'll laugh
Buffy Zanzibar (12:41:50 AM): I'm an insurance underwriter
Buffy Zanzibar (12:42:07 AM): because it sounds so bean-counterish
EvDogg87 (12:42:09 AM): lol im going to school to be an accountant i have no room to judge
Buffy Zanzibar (12:42:14 AM): lol oh right
Buffy Zanzibar (12:42:20 AM): I think you told me this
Buffy Zanzibar (12:42:28 AM): i have an awful memory btw
Buffy Zanzibar (12:42:43 AM): which is maybe why I forgot what happened last week and expect you to, as well lol
EvDogg87 (12:43:08 AM): haha yeah
EvDogg87 (12:43:25 AM): well honestly i talk to you more than the other people
EvDogg87 (12:43:42 AM): and i really do believe that you want to make this work, so you really are not as high up on my list as you think
Buffy Zanzibar (12:44:00 AM): well can I tell you something?
Buffy Zanzibar (12:44:05 AM): haha like you're going to say no
EvDogg87 (12:44:08 AM): sure lol
Buffy Zanzibar (12:44:30 AM): you're like - keep talking, dig yourself a grave or spill everything lol
Buffy Zanzibar (12:46:38 AM): but seriously, it's kind of hard to admit this because I'd like to think I am not a total failure in ORGS lol, but last week after the "night" that I used my power I really felt horrible - like the next day it was like a morning after type thing - why did I do that? who am I? etc...I mean I know it sounds dramatic but I am kind of dramatic lol.
Buffy Zanzibar (12:46:59 AM): I almost just said screw the game and used Sheila's vote to vote myself out
Buffy Zanzibar (12:47:03 AM): I didn't obviously
Buffy Zanzibar (12:47:14 AM): because my sanity took over and I was like - um it's a game
Buffy Zanzibar (12:48:08 AM): but I guess I am just telling you this because I want you to know that it wasn't just no big deal to me - and honestly - if I could do it over I wouldn't have done it
EvDogg87 (12:48:23 AM): yeah i really do believe you about that
Buffy Zanzibar (12:49:11 AM): Not just because Sheila wants me out or you want me out etc - but because I feel horrible about having taken a trust and treated it like that
Buffy Zanzibar (12:49:31 AM): okay well I probably sound like a crazy pathetic person going on about it then
Buffy Zanzibar (12:49:50 AM): I'm not like Seb - I actually do have a conscience lol
EvDogg87 (12:50:26 AM): yeah like i mean i understand you just got caught up in the game, i understand that, it happens, but i can tell that you did it cuz of the game and it wasn't typical you and yeah i can tell you didn't feel right about it
EvDogg87 (12:50:34 AM): and yeah i was just gonna say something about seb
EvDogg87 (12:50:48 AM): you clearly aren't like him in that you get off on screwing people over whoever they may be
Buffy Zanzibar (12:51:18 AM): But the other thing that is good that came out of it (and I am just talking on a personal level here) is that I have always said - pffft ORGs are like playing monopoly - you wouldn't worry about kicking your friends out in monopoly
Buffy Zanzibar (12:51:46 AM): which I still believe it's a game - but I think some things aren't worth the game
EvDogg87 (12:52:01 AM): yeah
Buffy Zanzibar (12:52:27 AM): like I'd rather be happy with how I played then get to the end by stepping over people and screwing them
Buffy Zanzibar (12:52:43 AM): I always liked the people who did that - like Dr Will
Buffy Zanzibar (12:52:47 AM): which I still do lol
Buffy Zanzibar (12:53:08 AM): and good for him - but I am not that kind of player and I was fooling myself to think I could be
Buffy Zanzibar (12:53:26 AM): and OMG it really sounds like I need a shrink lol
EvDogg87 (12:53:36 AM): haha no i know what you mean
Buffy Zanzibar (12:53:43 AM): I talk too much sometimes
EvDogg87 (12:53:55 AM): ive thought that before that it would be fun to just go into a game and be a total asshole and be crazy and just mess around
EvDogg87 (12:54:01 AM): but then i get in there and i cant do it
Buffy Zanzibar (12:54:02 AM): yeah
Buffy Zanzibar (12:54:17 AM): well I played a BB game where I went in with a partner and I was like the bitch of the game
Buffy Zanzibar (12:54:42 AM): I got to final 3 - but I had some friends in the game that weren't happy with me - not that I did anything underhanded, just voted them out lol
Buffy Zanzibar (12:55:04 AM): but I don't know where I was going with this story
Buffy Zanzibar (12:55:06 AM): lol
Buffy Zanzibar (12:55:18 AM): brb
EvDogg87 (12:55:23 AM): haha okay
Buffy Zanzibar (12:57:19 AM): so anyway
Buffy Zanzibar (12:57:30 AM): that's like where my head was at I guess
Buffy Zanzibar (12:59:12 AM): I used to always hate the part of talking to people in games - but there are a couple people in this game who are very cool to talk to - you being one. So no matter what happens it's been worth it for that.
EvDogg87 (12:59:38 AM): yeah i agree
EvDogg87 (12:59:45 AM): thats actually definitely one of my favorite parts
EvDogg87 (12:59:58 AM): just talking to people and getting to know them and having fun and stuff
Buffy Zanzibar (1:00:03 AM): yeah
Buffy Zanzibar (1:00:07 AM): I need to chill more lol

CONVERSATION WITH JUN

Lunadarkhawk (10:52:47 PM): not much
Lunadarkhawk (10:52:52 PM): you?
EvDogg87 (10:53:23 PM): just finished my pape
Lunadarkhawk (10:53:27 PM): ah
Lunadarkhawk (10:53:30 PM): k
Lunadarkhawk (10:53:36 PM): well i have a question for you
EvDogg87 (10:53:45 PM): ok
Lunadarkhawk (10:53:57 PM): you know trevor is one of my best org friends, but something s wrong with him
Lunadarkhawk (10:54:06 PM): i talked ot him about the game yesterday
Lunadarkhawk (10:54:10 PM): he isnt interested in it at all
Lunadarkhawk (10:54:17 PM): im wondering if you knwo why
EvDogg87 (10:54:28 PM): no i dont know why
EvDogg87 (10:54:33 PM): i wanted to talk to him about that myself
Lunadarkhawk (10:54:42 PM): because diane really wants to be here
Lunadarkhawk (10:54:45 PM): and trevor doesnt
Lunadarkhawk (10:54:47 PM): but
Lunadarkhawk (10:54:55 PM): i told you id keep trevor
Lunadarkhawk (10:55:33 PM): trevor jsut doesnt care thoguh
EvDogg87 (10:55:48 PM): doesnt seem like diane really cares to me
Lunadarkhawk (10:55:50 PM): i talked to him he said he'd prob be out this week anyways
Lunadarkhawk (10:56:46 PM): i just wanna make sure we are doing the right thing
EvDogg87 (10:56:47 PM): neither of them have added anything to the game
EvDogg87 (10:57:00 PM): neither of them posted about the live challenge
Lunadarkhawk (10:57:02 PM): dont get me wrong trevor i probably favor everyone else in this game
Lunadarkhawk (10:57:07 PM): is*
Lunadarkhawk (10:57:11 PM): favorite*
Lunadarkhawk (10:57:23 PM): wow that sentence has alot of errors
EvDogg87 (10:57:41 PM): yeah i understand where you are coming from, just i dont think diane is all that deserving to stay either
Lunadarkhawk (10:57:49 PM): diane wants to play though
EvDogg87 (10:57:57 PM): she doesnt act like it
EvDogg87 (10:58:00 PM): did you talk to her?
Lunadarkhawk (10:58:03 PM): yea
Lunadarkhawk (10:58:07 PM): she sent me a pm begging to stay
Lunadarkhawk (10:58:15 PM): saying she really likes the game and doesnt want to leave yet
Lunadarkhawk (10:58:17 PM): and stuff
EvDogg87 (10:58:41 PM): well she can say that and all but that's about all she's done
EvDogg87 (10:58:55 PM): only place they are different really is that trevor hates seb
EvDogg87 (10:58:59 PM): and diane likes seb
Lunadarkhawk (10:59:04 PM):
Lunadarkhawk (10:59:13 PM): diane hates them both now
Lunadarkhawk (10:59:15 PM): for cheating
Lunadarkhawk (10:59:28 PM): sheila and seb
Lunadarkhawk (11:00:13 PM): tbh do you honestly beleive trevor deserve to go all the way to the final 4
Lunadarkhawk (11:00:18 PM): like he doesnt care
Lunadarkhawk (11:00:25 PM): well diane doesnt either
EvDogg87 (11:00:26 PM): no but neither does diane
EvDogg87 (11:01:03 PM): if trevor was up against parker or anyone else then i would say yeah i am with you, but diane hasnt done a thing
Lunadarkhawk (11:01:46 PM): and i wanted to get your insight because if we did decide to vote daniele out id want you to be cool with it and not feel like i am stabbing you because yea, i know trevor is a good friend of your s too
Lunadarkhawk (11:01:56 PM): but i know what you are saying
Lunadarkhawk (11:02:00 PM): diane hasnt done anything at all
EvDogg87 (11:02:34 PM): yeah
EvDogg87 (11:02:47 PM): im not going to change my mind on the subject
EvDogg87 (11:03:06 PM): the least 2 active people are on the block, that's good, let's let the one go that we aren't friends with
Lunadarkhawk (11:03:20 PM): l sounds good
Lunadarkhawk (11:03:22 PM): k*