Sarah's DR - Episode 7

[Sarah Hrejsa]

Okay - these challenges are getting harder and if you don't fucking dumb them down bigtime - I will probably get all depressed and start drinking more....lose my job...stay home and watch loser daytime TV and play online games all the time. But wait! That means I can practice my mini game posting speed and slider puzzles. Woohooo! :-P Seriously, Chels, you are killing me here.

At this point we join the game already in progress. Nathan has won HOH, nominated Dustin and Parker, and we are in the midst of veto. Just waitin' on Sebastard to pick his date. I am predicing Sheila gets final place and choice of prizes tonight - probably veto. She probably worked on that last puzzle forever and has a kickass score. :-P

After the HOH (yes, I'm posting all out of order but blame it on the wine:-P ) I talked to both Nathan and Sheila. I half-kiddingly proposed a secret alliance to Sheila, telling her no one would suspect us, lol. She said she was open but I am skeptical. I really think her pride was hurt and she wants to pay me back...no matter how much she tells me she "respects" me and wants me to do well. I don't buy it, really. I think first and foremost it's about winning the game....but I think if she knows I wouldn't put her up she would keep me around longer. Was this to backstab Dustin and Parker? No way. They are my first and second in this game right now, but I see the writing on the wall. At some point I will need to be in good graces with the powers that be - being Sheila and Ev, lol. I want them to trust me and get rid of Seb over me when the time comes. If Parker and Dustin can stick around and get Sheila out, that's cool. We'll go from there. I just think at this point I am sucking at the challenges and need to make sure I have some important relationships in tact. PLUS - I mean what i say to Sheila. I like her and I do want to work with her. So.... we'll see....

As far as Ev, I talked to him, too. Not yelled at him like Dustin, lol, but just asked him about his decision not to go after Seb when he told me he was going to. Well, I'm not nearly as surprised as Dustin. I think Ev knows that keeping Seb is better for him. Seb and Sheila are going to be two targets ahead of him - why would he get rid of them. Do I believe he doesn't want me out? Yeah, for now. I think he believes I want to work with him - and that's true, too. OMG I'm such an alliance whore in this game! I want everyone!!!

I have also been talking to Will more and I think he sees me as h is #1 - OR he has a deal with Seb and I'm going to be super shocked when I find this out. One weird thing is that he and Seb had a score that was exactly the same in round 2 - both by time and moves. How does that happen? lol

Okay - back to the challenge....

[Sarah Hrejsa]

Well Dustin's out and Ev will be next. Sheila didn't tell me what her last score was but it sounds like it was pretty good.....so my prediction is still that Sheila wins this thing. The important thing now will be the prizes. I want Seb's key - and I don't want Seb to have it. I want the extra vote, too, so if Dustin takes it and he and Parker remain on the block he could give it to me. I got a weird vibe from both Sheila and Ev later in the competition. Maybe because they know I'm working with Dustin and think I'll use veto on him if I win it. I don't think that's going to happen but that could be why I'm feeling that - or it could be my paranoia that is always there in these games. :-p

[Sarah Hrejsa]

Dustin, I'm sorry I couldn't win POV for you. I really wanted to save you and Parker this week. Now that one of you is leaving for sure, I have to think about the best option.

I know Nat/Sheila are voting you out so that leaves Daniele (OMG is she going to last until F4 or what?), Will and I. You said Dani will keep you, and I know Parker will tell me to vote him out. The problem with that is that I really think you are going to self-destruct - if not this round then maybe the next. Parker is much more level-headed and strategic.

Also, I just talked to Will and he is using his two votes to vote you out and so it makes no sense for me to vote against everyone else. The best you could hope for is 4-2 if Dani and I vote to keep you and I really see no other option here.

I appreciate your vote to keep me - although I know it was a selfish decision more than a generous one. Even so, I was and am grateful to you. I hope you don't hate me for what I have to do now. I have to think about Will and Parker and go on with the game.