Sarah's DR - Episode 8

[Sarah Hrejsa]

Too many allies? Sounds like a silly statement, but I found myself throwing my chance at HOH tonight to Parker just because I wouldn't have anyone to nominate. I have Will and Parker on one side. I have Ev on another and Sheila on yet another. I can't put up Seb since he's immune and I promised Daniele I wouldn't put her up when she offered to forfeit her part of the HOH comp if I would make that promise to her.

Sooooo I let Parker beat me at Battleship and now he will face Big SHE. For obvious reasons, I would like Parker to win. He can do the dirtywork in putting up Sheila and Ev, and if one of them comes off he will put up Daniele - something I couldn't have done.

I don't want Ev to go. I really really like Ev and I am finding myself bonding more and more with him. I really meant it when I told him I wasn't going to put him up and I'm starting to feel that he might keep me longer than Seb...and maybe even Sheila. The thing with Ev is that we are developing a pretty good friendship but I know he is a guy who can separate the game and personal relationships. That being said, I think he would be loyal to whoever he has promised loyalty to. If that is Sheila, then sobeit. I can't begrudge him keeping the one person who he trusts and has been worthy of his trust in this game. I certainly don't fit into that category for him.

I also don't want Sheila to go. Call me crazy, but I don't. Yes, we are talking and she said she was open to an alliance....and yes, I still think she would take me out before Ev or Seb...but I can't help but not want to get rid of her. Both because I like her and because I feel she is so deserving in this game. NO, I am not saying I want her to win again...but then again, my God, she has dominated this game. Is this a far cry from a couple of weeks ago? Yes, definitely. I just can't play the evil bitch in this game. The price isn't worth it for me.

Then there is Will. I loved him in Gabon, and I latched onto him right away when I saw him here. We don't talk much, though, and he is who I would want to see leave after Seb and Daniele. Nothing against him, he just ends up in that order with me.

And Parker. <33333 OMG, I adore Parker. Parker is my number one in the game andthe person for whom I will do whatever I can to keep safe. If he goes, not only am I going to be very sad but I will feel as if I'm alone. I believe Will is loyal to me, but we don't work as closely and I don't see him helping me as much as Parker can. Not to mention the fact that I love talking to Parker. This is why he NEEDS to win HOH this week. If Sheila wins she is putting him and Will up, and he will be the target. If Parker wins, he will put up Ev and Sheila. Not that I want them up but these seem to be the only choices this week. If that happens, and Sheila and Ev stay on the block, I would have to vote out Sheila.

I could address Daniele and Seb in here but all I would say is that Daniele is inactive and needs to go, and Seb is a jerk and needs to go.

Well, I guess I should wait for the winner of HOH to be decided and then agonize.

I haven't made a bootlist in this game but here it is, in case anyone is interested. (In order of who should go first in my ideal scenario):

1. Daniele
2. Seb
3. Will
4. Sheila
5. Ev
6. Parker

[Sarah Hrejsa]

Sheila is HOH - yet again, lol! And, amazingly, she said she will NOT be putting me up. She said she meant what she said about wanting more "deserving" people to make it farther. And I told her I meant what I said, as well, about not wanting her out.

Buffy Zanzibar (3:39:05 PM): congrats!
"Sheila" (3:39:11 PM): thanks
"Sheila" (3:42:47 PM): oh and by the way, I was serious when i told you however long ago that I still wanted you to go far or w/e I said i dont remember. But you're not going up even as a replacement
Buffy Zanzibar (3:43:18 PM): thank you - and I was serious when I said I wouldn't have put you up either
Buffy Zanzibar (3:43:48 PM): there are a couple of people who I think deserve to make it to the end and you're one of them
"Sheila" (3:44:10 PM): dustin seems to think the exact opposite lol
Buffy Zanzibar (3:44:28 PM): and I did mean it when I offered to work with you again - if you wanted to
Buffy Zanzibar (3:44:35 PM): what do you mean he thinks the opposite?
"Sheila" (3:44:46 PM): that i deserve to make it to the end
Buffy Zanzibar (3:44:49 PM): oh that you don't deserve it?
Buffy Zanzibar (3:44:52 PM): well he's bitter
"Sheila" (3:45:07 PM): he told me seb would get his vote over me lol
"Sheila" (3:45:13 PM): I was just like "ok whatever"
"Sheila" (3:45:27 PM): but yeah I'm open to anything as far as working together goes
Buffy Zanzibar (3:46:08 PM): well you know who I want out lol - and it's so ironic
"Sheila" (3:46:27 PM): lol
"Sheila" (3:47:29 PM): well seb is safe this week no matter what
"Sheila" (3:47:46 PM): wouldn't it be funny if he was hoh at f5
"Sheila" (3:47:55 PM): and then the person not on the block besides me won veto and saved a nom
"Sheila" (3:47:59 PM): which means he'd have to put me up
"Sheila" (3:48:03 PM): which means he'd go up
Buffy Zanzibar (3:48:54 PM): oh that would be poetic
"Sheila" (3:48:58 PM): lol
Buffy Zanzibar (3:49:08 PM): but unfortunately, all the scenarios we talk about with Seb never happen
"Sheila" (3:49:13 PM): no kidding

We talked about possibly putting up Daniele, which would be amazing if she did that...but I don't think she will...

Buffy Zanzibar (3:59:42 PM): you're putting up Will and Parker?
"Sheila" (4:00:14 PM): idk i want to talk to people
"Sheila" (4:00:20 PM): at this point im just fed up with dani lol
Buffy Zanzibar (4:00:30 PM): well I would love her to go
"Sheila" (4:00:50 PM): i know, lol, so if i get rid of her guys for you then any sort of safety net is gone for me
"Sheila" (4:00:59 PM): um
"Sheila" (4:01:05 PM): ignore the guys
Buffy Zanzibar (4:01:27 PM): I understand - no one wants to do it because there are people that are more "dangerous" to them to get out
"Sheila" (4:01:42 PM): and that's why she'll get to the end
"Sheila" (4:01:43 PM): ew
Buffy Zanzibar (4:01:45 PM): but it would be kind of nice if we could call a one week truce and just get rid of her and then go on with the game
Buffy Zanzibar (4:02:01 PM): and it would piss seb off to waste his immunity
"Sheila" (4:02:10 PM): lol
Buffy Zanzibar (4:02:34 PM): idk I just hate it when inactive people float by for no other reason than they're not worth putting up
Buffy Zanzibar (4:02:37 PM): I would have put her up

(well I wouldn't have this round since I promised, but that's why I threw it to Parker....but I would any other week)

[Sarah Hrejsa]

Apparently Seb is having trouble in paradise. He and Ev - not so much aligned anymore. Ev went off on him and Seb is now against the whole house and will fight to win HOH/POV since he is all alone. LOL OMG don't you realize that no one believes anything you say and no one cares if you are upset since you take such joy in making others upset? Get real, brat.

"Evan/Nathan" (6:38:17 PM): i just lost it with seb
Buffy Zanzibar (6:38:46 PM): lol uh oh
Buffy Zanzibar (6:38:59 PM): I am hosting my final challenge - I'll be done in about 30 minutes or so
"Evan/Nathan" (6:39:03 PM): k
"Evan/Nathan" went away at 6:43:09 PM.
Buffy Zanzibar (7:34:00 PM): Seb IMd me and told me you yelled at him

Buffy Zanzibar (7:34:10 PM): or no he said attacked you
Buffy Zanzibar (7:34:15 PM): you attacked him lol
"Evan/Nathan" (7:52:22 PM): yeah
"Evan/Nathan" (7:52:26 PM): i had to just let it all out
Buffy Zanzibar (7:52:34 PM): what did you say?
Buffy Zanzibar (7:52:38 PM): he didn't tell me
Buffy Zanzibar (7:52:44 PM): well I was busy when he IMd me
"Evan/Nathan" (7:53:11 PM): just that i couldnt take his bullshit anymore
Buffy Zanzibar (7:53:19 PM): lol <33
"Evan/Nathan" (7:53:20 PM): and him acting all high and mighty when he hasnt done anything
Buffy Zanzibar (7:53:32 PM): what was he saying to make you say that?
"Evan/Nathan" (7:54:17 PM): oh he was just acting like he does
Buffy Zanzibar (7:54:51 PM): yeah
Buffy Zanzibar (7:54:59 PM): he deserved it, I'm sure
"Evan/Nathan" (7:55:28 PM): so yeah
"Evan/Nathan" (7:55:37 PM): im definitely ready to take him down now
Buffy Zanzibar (7:55:49 PM): are you?
"Evan/Nathan" (7:56:06 PM): yes

Buffy Zanzibar (7:58:12 PM): you would put Seb up now if you won HOH?
"Evan/Nathan" (7:59:28 PM): yes
"Evan/Nathan" (7:59:35 PM): for sure

[Sarah Hrejsa]

Sarah's Alliances:



Sarah's Targets:

[Sarah Hrejsa]

So, it sounds like Will and Parker are going up. In that scenario, we better win POV and get Parker off the block or he's going home. There would only be four votes and Nathan already told me he would vote Parker out. Also Natalie would probably vote Parker (although that fight with Will the other night might convince him to keep Parker). Daniele would be a possibility to keep Parker, but Nathan would probably get her to vote him out. I will keep Parker, but even if I could get it to be 2/2, Sheila would vote him out.

I have no doubt that Sheila and Nathan know I am close to Parker. And Seb has made comments about an alliance between Will, Parker and I, so there is no point in pretending here. It's just kind of unspoken. I think that is one of the reasons they both want Parker out. I'm getting closer to Nathan all the time and without Parker that just makes it that much more likely that he would be my #1 in this game. Sheila, kind of same thing. Both Nathan and Sheila know I won't put them up. I'd go after Seb, Daniele, even Will before them. LOL I can't really "go after" anyone without winning an HOH and I gave up my last pretty good shot at it by throwing it to Parker. But in any case, I believe if Parker gets put up and stays up after POV, he's out of here.

Parker expects me to go up and he also expects me to follow him out the door if he leaves. Welllll that could be the case if Seb wins HOH next week, but if not, I honestly don't think that's going to happen. Okay, time to go to bed before I start getting too cocky and overconfident...

[Sarah Hrejsa]

Okay Sheila did put up Parker and Will. She also won POV and kept Parker and Will on the block. Neither of them bothered to talk to her, I guess, which sucks. It could have been Daniele leaving this week. Retards!

I get the pride thing but come on. It's a damn game. Anyway, I stayed off and Seb isn't happy - fuck you, Seb.

He was a jerk to me in chat but IDC. It amuses me. I guess he was IMing everyone else but me.

I think I have a F3 happening Sheila and Nathan. Ironic or what??? (see below)

Buffy Zanzibar (9:23:04 PM): So you want another of my revelations? One that you know, I'm sure. This is one of those things that you "know" but don't say. And I know you know. I have to be loyal. But I'm also loyal to you. OMG I am a little buzzed. I haven't had dinner. But what I am trying to say is - I'm not ever going to put you up. Or vote you out.....
Buffy Zanzibar (9:23:20 PM): I don't even know if tha tmade sense
Buffy Zanzibar (9:23:29 PM): brb
"Evan/Nathan" (9:23:35 PM): lol ok
"Evan/Nathan" (9:24:11 PM): i think it made sense?
"Evan/Nathan" (9:24:29 PM): i understand if you want to vote out parker thats completely fine with me
"Evan/Nathan" (9:24:50 PM): im not like dustin and i dont try and make people do what i want them to
Buffy Zanzibar (9:26:07 PM): what?
"Evan/Nathan" (9:26:14 PM): k maybe i didnt understand you
Buffy Zanzibar (9:27:04 PM): I don't know what I'm going to do as far as the vote - but that didn't have anything to do with that
"Evan/Nathan" (9:27:15 PM): oh
Buffy Zanzibar (9:27:26 PM): I kind of feel like it doesn't matter what I do
Buffy Zanzibar (9:27:51 PM): because if you vote Parker, Daniele probably will, too. but idk that's presumptive
Buffy Zanzibar (9:27:59 PM): and if it's a tie, Sheila will evict Parker
Buffy Zanzibar (9:28:34 PM): OH NO
Buffy Zanzibar (9:28:43 PM): Oden fouled out
Buffy Zanzibar (9:29:07 PM): omg it's so close
Buffy Zanzibar (9:30:09 PM): so what I just said - um no comments?
"Evan/Nathan" (9:30:18 PM): lol to which part
"Evan/Nathan" (9:30:24 PM): where you are going to be loyal to me forever <3
Buffy Zanzibar (9:30:27 PM): lol
Buffy Zanzibar (9:30:30 PM): yeah
Buffy Zanzibar (9:30:48 PM): OMG is that Rick Adelman?
Buffy Zanzibar (9:31:05 PM): WOOHOOOOOOOOO
"Evan/Nathan" (9:31:08 PM): lol
"Evan/Nathan" (9:31:10 PM): whodat?
Buffy Zanzibar (9:31:16 PM): 6 point lead!
Buffy Zanzibar (9:31:18 PM): YES
Buffy Zanzibar (9:31:27 PM): it was just like 1 point lead 1 second ago
"Evan/Nathan" (9:31:30 PM): maybe i should just put the game on
Buffy Zanzibar (9:31:34 PM): lol
Buffy Zanzibar (9:31:42 PM): well you can still comment
Buffy Zanzibar (9:32:00 PM): because if you leave me hanging.... I will just make a F2 with Seb
Buffy Zanzibar (9:32:33 PM): yayyyy
Buffy Zanzibar (9:32:49 PM): (not yay to Seb)
Buffy Zanzibar (9:32:54 PM): Yay to the Blazers!
"Evan/Nathan" (9:33:37 PM): haha
Buffy Zanzibar (9:34:53 PM): OMG I just screamed lol
Buffy Zanzibar (9:34:58 PM): 8 ahead
Buffy Zanzibar (9:35:01 PM): he stole it
"Evan/Nathan" (9:35:12 PM): well i definitely appreciate it and am loyal to you too, i dont want to throw final 2 out there i never like to i havent even made one with sheila despite what you might think
"Evan/Nathan" (9:35:21 PM): plus you have that curse
Buffy Zanzibar (9:36:53 PM): lol
Buffy Zanzibar (9:38:58 PM): I understand. But I feel loyalty to both you and Sheila. I mean I screwed you both (or tried) but you both gave me another chance....plus I am not an idiot. You are winning everything... haha
"Evan/Nathan" (9:40:21 PM): haha yeah
Buffy Zanzibar (9:40:23 PM): No, but seriously you're the person I'm closest to in the game. And the person I trust the most. It must be all those answers where you tell me you can't promise me anything or you are "almost" back to trusting me, lol. I believe what you say.
Buffy Zanzibar (9:40:52 PM): because I know you wouldn't just lie to me to placate me
"Evan/Nathan" (9:40:53 PM): lol well im not going to just tell you what you want to hear
"Evan/Nathan" (9:40:56 PM): yeah
Buffy Zanzibar (9:40:57 PM): I know
"Evan/Nathan" (9:41:09 PM): and yeah i would really like the final 3 to be me you and sheila
"Evan/Nathan" (9:41:16 PM): and i dunno if i should tell you this or not
Buffy Zanzibar (9:41:23 PM): you should
Buffy Zanzibar (9:41:25 PM): .lol
"Evan/Nathan" (9:41:28 PM): dont tell sheila i told you, she may have even said something to you
"Evan/Nathan" (9:41:37 PM): but she said something to me about wanting a final 3 of us again
Buffy Zanzibar (9:42:14 PM): well that would be cool
Buffy Zanzibar (9:42:19 PM): and I know it's dumb
Buffy Zanzibar (9:42:59 PM): lol I am just dumb
Buffy Zanzibar (9:44:30 PM): IDK I just don't want to say anything pathetic like - I understand if you two take eachother since I suck at comps.... but I am close to being pathetic so I should shut up
"Evan/Nathan" (9:45:01 PM): lol well if you gotta make a move against us then go for it
"Evan/Nathan" (9:45:04 PM): it worked so well last time
Buffy Zanzibar (9:45:08 PM): OMG shut up
Buffy Zanzibar (9:45:28 PM): why did you get THAT from what I said?
"Evan/Nathan" (9:45:39 PM): haha i was just messin
Buffy Zanzibar (9:45:51 PM): I am not going to apologize for that forever you know
"Evan/Nathan" (9:45:51 PM): and you never know what things will be like by then
"Evan/Nathan" (9:46:01 PM): thats why im not locking in a final 2 with anyone
Buffy Zanzibar (9:46:13 PM): It's over okay? I fucking made a move and it was dumb and it didn't work - lol
"Evan/Nathan" (9:46:24 PM): oh wait i did have one with dustin... but this was the stage where i was lying to him nonstop
Buffy Zanzibar (9:46:30 PM): lol
"Evan/Nathan" (9:46:32 PM): lol sorry
Buffy Zanzibar (9:46:34 PM): don't lie to me
Buffy Zanzibar (9:46:40 PM): I'm not lying to you
"Evan/Nathan" (9:46:45 PM): haha yeah i lied to you
"Evan/Nathan" (9:46:50 PM): i really did want a final 2 with you
Buffy Zanzibar (9:46:51 PM): you did?
"Evan/Nathan" (9:46:58 PM): but i decided to just lie and say no
Buffy Zanzibar (9:47:02 PM): YAY we won!
Buffy Zanzibar (9:47:05 PM): shut up
"Evan/Nathan" (9:47:08 PM):
Buffy Zanzibar (9:47:12 PM): grrrr
Buffy Zanzibar (9:47:58 PM): lol I was kidding about the curse
Buffy Zanzibar (9:48:21 PM): oh and the banner - lol I made that up
"Evan/Nathan" (9:48:34 PM): funnnnyyyy
Buffy Zanzibar (9:48:37 PM): lol
Buffy Zanzibar (9:48:45 PM): funny that I made it up ?
Buffy Zanzibar (9:48:52 PM): or that I didn't?
"Evan/Nathan" (9:49:00 PM): oh i thought you were joking about lying about it
"Evan/Nathan" (9:49:02 PM): since i just did
Buffy Zanzibar (9:49:09 PM): I was joking about lying about it
Buffy Zanzibar (9:49:14 PM): since you just did what?
"Evan/Nathan" (9:49:33 PM): joke about lying

[Sarah Hrejsa]

God what a whore I am! I am losing Parker so I promise my loyalty to Nathan. I mean it..and it's weird but it's almost a relief. I didn't want to have to choose between Parker and Nathan....and it looks like I won't have to. I also don't want to have to choose between Sheila and Nathan...but I think if it's us at F3 (which would be amazing, btw), then I'd be out. They will not forget what I did....