Sarah's DR - Episode 10

[Sarah Hrejsa]

So close and yet so far. I came soooo close to winning HOH this week. When Sheila and Nat fell asleep and I was able to win the Battlefield part of the HOH it was basically mine to lose. All I needed were two passwords...and I tried for hours and hours. Unfortunately I didn't get them and now I'm pretty sure Sheila is putting me up with Will. I want Seb gone soooo bad. And, for some reason, Sheila doesn't.

I think it may be that he is so hated by the jury and she knows he is going to be more loyal to her than anyone. The thing is, I don't get why she trusts him more than me. Yeah, there was "the incident" but I have really tried to make up for that and I think I'm basically a more trustworthy person than him. And all her talk about wanting someone "deserving" to get to the end. She can't be including Seb in that, can she?

I IMd her but she hasn't answered for some reason. That doesn't leave me with a great feeling. Well, nothing I can do about it now except try and win POV. I think Nathan will help me since he wants Seb out about as much as I do... I think.

[Sarah Hrejsa]

Well, this is what I'm being told. And I want to believe it but since I am always so paranoid I don't know for sure.....but my gut feeling is that it's the truth.

Sheila is putting me up with Will and then she and Ev will help me win POV so Seb goes up. The only bad situation is if Seb wins and removes Will. Then I would be up with Nathan.

Nathan said he has been playing up his mystery prize, though, so Seb is scared of it. That's good, because if I'm up all I need is Nathan to stay off the block and Sheila can break a tie, if there is one. Nathan is telling Seb that he will vote me out. Sheila told him he was safe. So...I just need that Veto. If Seb leaves the game it'll be the happiest moment of the game for me.

[Sarah Hrejsa]

And the Veto goes to.....

SARAH!!!

Woooofuckinhoooo! Very nice feeling to know that I am safe, moving on to Final 4 and Natalie is finally leaving the game...and an even better feeling to know that she feels totally safe as Sheila has assured her that Nathan will vote to keep her so even if I vote her out Sheila would keep her in a tie. Uhhhh ever try REALITY Natalie??? Nathan wants you out and you're finally leaving. I truly cannot wait until to see the Chelsbot announce that you are GONE!




Now that I have THAT out of the way (oh, who am I kidding? I will probably make a few more posts about how happy I am that Nat is out), onto last night's drama...well for me, anyway. Inner drama...

I worked with Nathan on the POV, and he got a lot of them at first. We were down to just a few when he finally found Alison and I found Lisa and Hardy. I rechecked my list, showed Nathan, who agreed, and then I submitted. The whole time I was thinking that it was taking way too long and I might not be first. So, I PMd Chels at about 8:13 (my time so 11:13 edt) and then I saw that Natalie had posted in the POV thread at 8:11 that she was "buzzing in." I freaked a little bit. My heart sunk because all I could think about was the POV where Sheila and Nathan helped Seb beat Howie and I and I was sure I'd been played and they were laughing at me.

I even asked Nathan, who was surprisingly calm in his answer and said that if I was played so was he. Then he told me that Nat was lying to me and just trying to scare me. Sheila confirmed that, as well, and they both showed me IMs from Nat where she was trying to guess Lisa's mouth - and getting it wrong.

By this time I had unblocked Nat (I blocked her during the comp so she wouldn't bother me) and went uninvisible. Nat immediately started IMing me and telling me she was done and had submitted at 8:03. She even took the time to show me a fake screen print of her submission. I don't think she submitted until around 40 minutes later.

I also talked to Will, and found out he hadn't submitted until 8:45 or so, either. Soooo I doublechecked again and waited....and voila! I won and I couldn't have been happier!

My only thing now is that all this time I have wanted to beat Seb and throw it in his face, and it's almost a let down because I know I'll just feel mean. I don't know how he takes pleasure in this stuff....but don't get me wrong. I am going to try. *HUGE sigh of relief* Unless Will finally wins something this next round, this could mean F3 for me.....it's almost sad to think about that since this game has been so fun. I almost don't even care about winning (no, I'm not delusional - I'm pretty sure I'll go out at least 3rd but I have to be positive, right?) .... it's just not being able to stay in and compete that is always the bummer. So, whether I make it to F4 (already have yay), F3 (I have high hopes of this) or F2 (hey, it COULD happen, folks)...I am really happy to get this far in the game.