Episode 11

[Nathan Marlow]

WEEK ELEVEN

That HoH challenge was not my thang. I hate when it's like oh, you have to get your answer in this fast or else you are out. That just freaks me out. I didn't have enough of the past info recorded to do terribly well and Big She blew it out of the park once again. That's fine with me though, just as long as Will didn't win. She nominated Sarah and Will once again, which is whatever, it doesn't matter. If she had nominated me I wouldn't have cared in the slightest.

Then comes the veto and I was totally workin' it and then pesky Natalie of course has to be a total bitch to find. None of us could find it anywhere. So then I decided hey, I will just be the first to submit with a score of 11 so if no one can find Natalie, I will win. Then if I did come across it, I could just give it to Sarah and she could win and keep me. I hope I'm not so stupid to trust her, but I feel pretty confident with her. Then I thought well since I am in, if we can get Will to submit with 11 then this will all be locked up. I knew Sarah had been talking with him, so she brought it up, and he went with it. While I was at work, Sarah did end up finding it and won the challenge though. It was in the basement, which did cross my mind, but I didn't remember the password and I guess I just thought it couldn't be there since not everyone had access, but all 4 of us did, so it was fair game.

Now for the vote, Sarah chooses who goes... Will or me. The first time I have been on the block all game. If Sarah really wants to win this game, then she should take me out, so it's hard for me to think I am totally in the clear. I'm pretty sure thinks/knows that I will take Sheila to the finals and vice versa probably, and she would have a much better shot at actually winning the final HoH with sucky Will around. But she has pledged her loyalty to me plenty of times and I have proven to be loyal to her too. She has said she wants to make up for the selfish backstab stunt she tried earlier, so now she can redeem herself. I think she will. And if she does vote me out, then boy, I got plaaaayed.

[Nathan Marlow]

CONVERSATION WITH SARAH

EvDogg87 (7:30:42 PM): hey
Buffy Zanzibar (7:31:07 PM): hey
EvDogg87 (7:32:02 PM): you sure are dragging this out
Buffy Zanzibar (7:35:42 PM): I know - I wanted to talk to you before I posted it
EvDogg87 (7:35:50 PM): so you are voting for me then?
Buffy Zanzibar (7:39:42 PM): I have been loyal to you and Sheila up until this point...and I have gone back and forth on this all day . I just feel like at this point I need something back from you - and you can't give it to me. And bottom line it's a game. If I keep you it's like I'm just evicting myself at the end.
EvDogg87 (7:40:00 PM): i've already given to you
EvDogg87 (7:40:04 PM): i evicted seb for you
EvDogg87 (7:40:14 PM): dragging him to the end would have been easy for me
Buffy Zanzibar (7:40:20 PM): you and Sheila are taking each other
Buffy Zanzibar (7:40:22 PM): I know this
Buffy Zanzibar (7:40:40 PM): if there was an equality it would be different
EvDogg87 (7:40:43 PM): so all that talk about how you felt so bad about screwing sheila over and you felt so terrible
EvDogg87 (7:40:47 PM): and how you cried?
Buffy Zanzibar (7:40:51 PM): no
EvDogg87 (7:40:51 PM): i shouldnt have believed you?
Buffy Zanzibar (7:40:54 PM): that was all true
EvDogg87 (7:41:03 PM): and now you want to do it again?
Buffy Zanzibar (7:41:03 PM): I was always going to take you
Buffy Zanzibar (7:41:21 PM): but tell me I'm wrong
EvDogg87 (7:41:27 PM): you're wrong
EvDogg87 (7:41:41 PM): and i feel like i need something back from you
EvDogg87 (7:41:47 PM): i helped you win a veto
EvDogg87 (7:41:50 PM): i evicted seb
Buffy Zanzibar (7:41:51 PM): I know
EvDogg87 (7:41:54 PM): and you are gonna vote me out?
EvDogg87 (7:42:01 PM): if you want me to promise to take you, then i will
Buffy Zanzibar (7:42:07 PM): are you going to vote me out if you win ?
EvDogg87 (7:42:11 PM): i never wanted to make a promise
EvDogg87 (7:42:14 PM): but
EvDogg87 (7:42:18 PM): i havent made it with sheila
Buffy Zanzibar (7:42:21 PM): well I feel like there is an unspoken promise
EvDogg87 (7:42:24 PM): so i might as well make one
Buffy Zanzibar (7:42:50 PM): but I don't want you to say it now just because you're mad at me and you figure you can just lie to me
Buffy Zanzibar (7:42:58 PM): and honestly
EvDogg87 (7:43:00 PM): i don't lie to you
EvDogg87 (7:43:04 PM): i think i have showed that already
Buffy Zanzibar (7:43:05 PM): I don't either
EvDogg87 (7:44:30 PM): im just really shocked
EvDogg87 (7:44:33 PM): i never expected this
Buffy Zanzibar (7:44:56 PM): well that's why I'm talking to you
EvDogg87 (7:45:03 PM): i was full on helping you win this veto here, and even though i didnt actually help, i still wouldnt think you would
Buffy Zanzibar (7:45:18 PM): I had no intention of not keeping you
Buffy Zanzibar (7:45:51 PM): and when I talked to you today I just thought
Buffy Zanzibar (7:45:58 PM): ugh I have gone back and forth so many times
Buffy Zanzibar (7:46:24 PM): because on one hand I just want to say - okay, I wanted to be F3 with you and Sheila - let's just play and someone deserving can win
Buffy Zanzibar (7:46:32 PM): because yes, I would rather see you win than Will
Buffy Zanzibar (7:46:51 PM): but if it's a lock that you and Sheila will take each other - than I'm really a fool
EvDogg87 (7:47:06 PM): it's not a lock though
Buffy Zanzibar (7:48:05 PM): well to be honest - my head tells me one thing and my gut tells me another
Buffy Zanzibar (7:48:31 PM): I really don't want to vote you out
EvDogg87 (7:48:32 PM): im just so surprised that you want to do this after what happened with sheila earlier
Buffy Zanzibar (7:48:39 PM): I don't want to
EvDogg87 (7:48:41 PM): i gave you another chance and i thought we were on the same level
EvDogg87 (7:48:52 PM): ive never opened up like this to someone in a game before
EvDogg87 (7:49:03 PM): i dont talk to sheila nearly as much as i talk to you
EvDogg87 (7:49:28 PM): so yeah 4th place is a great finish, but this would easily be most painful elimination from a game just considering who it came from
Buffy Zanzibar (7:49:51 PM): ugh
Buffy Zanzibar (7:49:59 PM): I really hate this game
Buffy Zanzibar (7:50:47 PM): I feel exactly the same way I did before
Buffy Zanzibar (7:51:16 PM): you know what? I don't even care - you can Sheila can win and take each other
EvDogg87 (7:52:27 PM): i dont get how you think that's sucha a guarantee
Buffy Zanzibar (7:52:46 PM): it's not a guarantee
EvDogg87 (7:52:48 PM): and speaking for myself, getting to the final 3 with my 2 best friends in the game is winning enough
Buffy Zanzibar (7:54:02 PM): You're right
Buffy Zanzibar (7:54:14 PM): I tried to look at this as "just a game"
Buffy Zanzibar (7:54:20 PM): and I obviously can't
Buffy Zanzibar (7:54:32 PM): I can't do this
Buffy Zanzibar (7:59:24 PM): are you here?
EvDogg87 (7:59:28 PM): yes
Buffy Zanzibar (7:59:42 PM): I kept you
EvDogg87 (8:00:35 PM): :-)
EvDogg87 (8:00:39 PM): thank you
Buffy Zanzibar (8:00:43 PM): and now you're going to be mad at me for almost evicting you right?
EvDogg87 (8:01:02 PM): no i completely understand your dilemma
Buffy Zanzibar (8:01:03 PM): at least give me credit for being honest
EvDogg87 (8:01:08 PM): i defintely do
Buffy Zanzibar (8:01:21 PM): because it was going to kill me
Buffy Zanzibar (8:01:34 PM): that's why I waited so long - and went back and forth
Buffy Zanzibar (8:01:46 PM): so I'm sorry to do that to you
Buffy Zanzibar (8:02:06 PM): and no matter how many people think I'm an idiot - at least I will feel okay with it
EvDogg87 (8:02:22 PM): good, that's what matters
EvDogg87 (8:02:26 PM): im happy to just have this final 3
EvDogg87 (8:02:37 PM): and if you win and don't take me, that i would be fine with
EvDogg87 (8:02:44 PM): but at least you pissed seb off
EvDogg87 (8:02:47 PM): he is not happy
Buffy Zanzibar (8:04:11 PM): arasfromexile (5:04:15 PM): you made the dumbest MOVE ever
arasfromexile (5:04:18 PM): -__-
Buffy Zanzibar (5:04:30 PM): go fuck yourself and stay in the jury house
EvDogg87 (8:06:49 PM): he's really pissing me off now
Buffy Zanzibar (8:08:29 PM): why?
EvDogg87 (8:08:48 PM): cuz he keeps being like good job on playing her
Buffy Zanzibar (8:11:00 PM): yeah well, good job
Buffy Zanzibar (8:11:01 PM): lol
EvDogg87 (8:11:27 PM): well i certainly did try and guilt trip you
Buffy Zanzibar (8:11:32 PM): I'm kidding
Buffy Zanzibar (8:11:38 PM): oh lol
EvDogg87 (8:11:39 PM): but our relationship isnt fake or a play
Buffy Zanzibar (8:12:38 PM): and yes, I know you tried to guilt trip me - but don't think I didnt' do it to myself too
EvDogg87 (8:12:43 PM): yeah
Buffy Zanzibar (8:12:51 PM): I think I wanted you to talk me out of it
EvDogg87 (8:13:35 PM): oh really lol
Buffy Zanzibar (8:13:41 PM): I am too emotional in this game - I tried to be tough :-(
Buffy Zanzibar (8:13:45 PM): and I couldn't
Buffy Zanzibar (8:15:02 PM): I don't know - after I won POV I just wished you had
Buffy Zanzibar (8:17:14 PM): was Sheila talking to you ?
EvDogg87 (8:18:20 PM): a bit
EvDogg87 (8:18:37 PM): she was just saying she was nervous about what you were going to do
Buffy Zanzibar (8:21:49 PM): oh
EvDogg87 (8:21:54 PM): why?
Buffy Zanzibar (8:22:01 PM): well I told her
EvDogg87 (8:22:09 PM): oh lol
EvDogg87 (8:22:13 PM): i guess thats why she was nervous
Buffy Zanzibar (8:22:17 PM): at the same time I was talking to you
Buffy Zanzibar (8:22:23 PM): and now I'm getting hate PMs from Will
EvDogg87 (8:22:35 PM): thats not cool
EvDogg87 (8:22:48 PM): i wouldnt have done that : )
Buffy Zanzibar (8:22:49 PM): well whatever
Buffy Zanzibar (8:22:52 PM): it is what it is
EvDogg87 (8:22:57 PM): yeah
Buffy Zanzibar (8:23:02 PM): they are probably all pissed off in the jury house
Buffy Zanzibar (8:24:03 PM): Chris told me I got here by kissing ass and riding coattails
Buffy Zanzibar (8:24:06 PM): everyone has an opinion
EvDogg87 (8:24:16 PM): yep
EvDogg87 (8:24:28 PM): sorry you feel so shitty about it all :/
Buffy Zanzibar (8:24:56 PM): I just knew I would be making someone mad
EvDogg87 (8:24:58 PM): just dont worry about them, you have kicked ass
Buffy Zanzibar (8:25:06 PM): but honestly I'd rather have it be will than you
Buffy Zanzibar (8:25:30 PM): yeah Will already told me I won't get his vote
Buffy Zanzibar (8:25:33 PM): I love bitter jurors
Buffy Zanzibar (8:26:05 PM): hey - now it would be dumb of either of you not to take me lol - I will definitely lose haha
Buffy Zanzibar (8:26:44 PM): are you going to try in this endurance?
EvDogg87 (8:29:29 PM): yep
EvDogg87 (8:29:39 PM): im not throwing this at all
EvDogg87 (8:29:49 PM): i am leaving now to go meet with my friends though
Buffy Zanzibar (8:29:54 PM): yeah because part II is going to suck
Buffy Zanzibar (8:30:02 PM): okay
EvDogg87 (8:31:22 PM): cya and gl with the endurance