Sexy Sarah's Questions

[Sarah Hrejsa]

Sheila and Nathan - I first want to congratulate you both on making it to the end. Yes, it was kind of an inevitability and everyone predicted it, but that makes you no less deserving. You both played strong games. Everyone wanted both of you out because they were afraid of this final two so great job in making it here!

I have some comments and questions for you both....and if I sound a bit bitchy, wellllll good! I also reserve the right to ask new or followup questions once I see your answers to my questions, as well as to the other jurors' questions.

Nathan
I played a very emotional game, so it's only fitting that my questions also be emotional. I would say to you especially, but who knows what I will be rambling on about by the time I get to Sheila's questions?

You, of all people, know how much I let my emotional side rule what I did in this game - especially at the end. You mentioned that you were very creative in asking me to try to get Will to submit early in the Final POV. I did it, but at that point I still was not decided on which of you I was going to take. I felt pretty good about my chances of finding Natalie's pic and I wanted to have that decision instead of leaving it in his or your hands.

First, how confident were you in me keeping you at F4? And if you were 100% confident, did you think you had me wrapped around your finger for most of the game? You stated that not everything you did was personal. So, please tell me if you purposely used my weaknesses against me, including those 30 minutes after I told you I was voting you out, when I changed my mind at the last minute. I know everyone on the jury thinks you played me to get me to keep you, threw part II of the HOH so you wouldn't have to vote me or Sheila out, and felt very confident in being the one chosen at the end. I would like to know if this is true or not.

I ended up keeping you over Will because I felt that if I couldn't win I wanted one of you to win. I first wanted to get to the end with Howie (that went well lol) and after he left I wanted it to be Parker, and after Parker left I actually felt a little bit of relief that I wasn't in the middle anymore between You/Sheila and Parker/Jun. So from that point on I wanted the F3 to be you, me and Sheila...even though I felt that either of you would have taken the other one. You told me that you never made a F2 with Sheila and you were 50/50 on who you would keep if/when it came to that point. So, my next question to you is, was that bullshit or the truth? Would you have kept me or Sheila had you won the final HOH and why?

Also, if you were a third party looking on and I asked you for advice in whether to be loyal and keep you at F4 or to vote you out and keep Will, what what advice would you give me? Please be detailed and explain your answer.

And finallyyyy please tell me what you really think of my ass? This WILL make a difference in how I vote. Thank you!


Big She
I'm not going to go for the obvious questions here. I'll let someone else do that. You know I have to get personal with you, too, since this game was nothing to me if not personal.

First of all, you stated in your opening that you wanted to go to the end with me. WHY DIDN'T YOU EVER SAY THAT TO ME? LOL I mean, yes, I had Howie but I would never have backstabbed you if I thought you wanted that. I was so paranoid of your relationship with Nathan, Jun and Daniele that I thought I needed to make a move. I know you're not the most talkative person sometimes but the one thing I wanted from you the most was communication. Yeah, I am in no position to tell you that you made a bad move since you're sitting at the end and I'm not, but I am just curious as to why you didn't communicate these things to me.

Also, I approached to you the night before part III of the final HOH and asked you who you would keep if you won. You were very noncomittal but never told me directly that you wouldn't keep me. I did feel that you wouldn't but did it ever cross your mind to make a deal in case you lost? I know you expected me to take Nathan, but honestly I wasn't sure at that point. After talking to you, though, I decided that if I won I would take him because I hated that you wouldn't even talk to me about it really at all. I'm just wondering if you had some sort of strategy in mind at that point or if you would were just confident that you would win?

[Sheila Kennedy]

May 6, 2009 20:11:16 GMT -5 Sarah Hrejsa said:

First of all, you stated in your opening that you wanted to go to the end with me. WHY DIDN'T YOU EVER SAY THAT TO ME? LOL I mean, yes, I had Howie but I would never have backstabbed you if I thought you wanted that. I was so paranoid of your relationship with Nathan, Jun and Daniele that I thought I needed to make a move. I know you're not the most talkative person sometimes but the one thing I wanted from you the most was communication. Yeah, I am in no position to tell you that you made a bad move since you're sitting at the end and I'm not, but I am just curious as to why you didn't communicate these things to me.

OMG First off! How the hell did were you paranoid about my relationships with Jun, Daniele, and Nathan?? I had SHOWED you conversations where I was lying to Jun about those keys or whatever which should have been enough to show I wasn't with her. Why would I lie about something that big if I was close to her? Then I also told you how skeptical I was of Daniele and Nathan being together and that I didn't completely trust Nathan as long as Daniele was in the game. I guess you could have seen that as a lie but whatever. Basically though, I discussed like EVERYTHING with you as far as nominating, discharging, who we were going to try and get to win challenges, and evicting. I had even told you like all the people that came to me with alliance ideas like Eric and whatever went on with week 1 between Daniele/Will/Karen/me whatever. I really don't see why I would tell you all of that if I was just going to go with other people over you. The only thing I didn't tell straight up was that I wanted a F2 with you, which I guess part of it may be was that this was right after BBAS when like whatever we had was unspoken so I was just use to it, or maybe it was because I didn't want to fully commit myself to a deal with you since I knew you were really true to Howie so I don't know. And you have told me numerous times that your F2 partners never work out. Anyways, I really don't see how you could have seen yourself low enough on my list that you had to backstab me. Maybe you should have asked!

Also, I approached to you the night before part III of the final HOH and asked you who you would keep if you won. You were very noncomittal but never told me directly that you wouldn't keep me. I did feel that you wouldn't but did it ever cross your mind to make a deal in case you lost? I know you expected me to take Nathan, but honestly I wasn't sure at that point. After talking to you, though, I decided that if I won I would take him because I hated that you wouldn't even talk to me about it really at all. I'm just wondering if you had some sort of strategy in mind at that point or if you would were just confident that you would win?

Ok well, no it didn't cross my mind to make a deal. I figured it would be 50/50 since it was just guessing and either of us had a chance to win, but I didn't want to make a deal in case I did win just to break it 1 day later because I really didn't want to do that to you. On the other hand I didn't want to just straight up tell you I was taking him because then I figured that would just push you to take him as well. Bottom line I just HATE talking to the person I'm not taking at F3 especially if I like them because I feel like shit and it's just so awkward lol. I definitely wasn't confident I would win though, it was probably the least confident I was besides that stupid battleship competition! I just don't like telling people I won't take them because then I feel bad, but then I feel bad if I make a deal and break it, so I just prefer not to talk lol. As you found out.

[Sarah Hrejsa]

LOL yeah, you did tell me all that but I was super paranoid of everyone. And I never thought that just because we were together in BBAS2 it automatically meant we would be in this game...in fact, I wanted to make new alliances in this game and not fall into the same ones but it turns out that you were probably the one who would have been most loyal to me out of anyone if I had trusted you from the beginning. But anywayyy

I have a followup question. I told you I was evicting Nathan 30 minutes before my posting deadline on Sunday - right before I told him. You said "okay" .... what was going through your head at that moment?

[Sheila Kennedy]

May 7, 2009 0:46:34 GMT -5 Sarah Hrejsa said:

LOL yeah, you did tell me all that but I was super paranoid of everyone. And I never thought that just because we were together in BBAS2 it automatically meant we would be in this game...in fact, I wanted to make new alliances in this game and not fall into the same ones but it turns out that you were probably the one who would have been most loyal to me out of anyone if I had trusted you from the beginning. But anywayyy

I didn't mean to imply that we were automatically alligned because we were in BBAS. I just meant like after we found the powers together it felt like we had SOMETHING and I was just used to have having unspoken stuff with you in the past and that's what I kind of felt this time.

I have a followup question. I told you I was evicting Nathan 30 minutes before my posting deadline on Sunday - right before I told him. You said "okay" .... what was going through your head at that moment?

First, I was thinking OH SHIT! Then I thought about how it was actually the smarter move for you so I shouldn't have been too upset. But then I did get upset and I thought about how fucking low it woulda been after he had your back a lot throughout the game and helped you win veto at F5. So the thought of you voting him out pissed me off soooooo much I was like THERE IS NO WAY IM TAKING THAT BITCH TO THE FINALS IF SHE VOTES NATHAN OUT. Then I was like I NEED TO MAKE HER THINK I WOULDNT TAKE NATHAN! But then I was like WELL IF I RANDOMLY MESSAGE HER SAYING THAT THEN SHE'LL KNOW IM JUST DESPERATE FOR HIM TO STAY. So I just kept quiet and then you randomly asked me if I would take Nathan and I just said "not necessarily" then I just stopped talking and just waited for Nathan to give me updates about what was going on. But I was basically freaking out.

[Sarah Hrejsa]

So, would you have taken me if I voted Nathan out? And...what was the conversation between you and Nathan during that 30 minutes?

[Sarah Hrejsa]

Seb revealed that he knows all three of the powers were claimed and that he knows about the HOH Deflect power. Turns out Chris told him but gave him the incorrect info about that power. He told Seb I have it and that I can use it on anyone who nominates me up until final 9.

I confronted Chris (convo is posted under the topic "Chris you're an asshole") and he said he did it for "us." Well, that may be true but I would rather him not going around giving out information that I was the obvious source of. I know Sheila knows I told him. She isn't going to trust me now and I really needed her to. She is a strong player and she'll take me out eventually - sooner if she doesn't trust me.

I'm sure this brings back some memories for you. It was part of the reason I followed through with Operation Human Shield (as Howie called it since I was his dumbass shield in this plan). I figured that since you and Nathan knew I was telling Howie everything you didn't trust me anymore. At that point, I'm sure you knew Seb wasn't lying about Howie giving him that info. I thought it was just going to drive me farther on the outside and make you trust Nathan more than me. Was I correct?

[Sheila Kennedy]

May 7, 2009 1:19:57 GMT -5 Sarah Hrejsa said:

So, would you have taken me if I voted Nathan out? And...what was the conversation between you and Nathan during that 30 minutes?

Yes, I probably would have taken you if you voted Nathan out, I just liked to make myself think I wouldn't!

And here's the convo I guess...my logs are stupid and they sometimes delete parts of convos. Before I said "which makes me nervous....." and all that stuff I said somewhere that you had just offered me a deal. I don't know what else is missing, if anything.

Jamison7538: hey
EvDogg87: hey
EvDogg87: whats up
Jamison7538: nothing
Jamison7538: im freaking out about who buffy is evicting
Jamison7538: has she told you?
EvDogg87: before she won the veto she was clear that she would vote will out
EvDogg87: then we talked today and she never point blank said im voting will out
EvDogg87: but i knew she had told will that she would vote me out
EvDogg87: so i asked her like are you going to tell will the truth before you post it?
EvDogg87: she said she would
EvDogg87: but yeah i didnt want to point blank ask how are you voting because i dont feel like i should have to
EvDogg87: but how long she is taking is making me nervous
Jamison7538: which makes me nervous because im surprised she's even asking since she knows I'd take you over her
EvDogg87: yeah
EvDogg87: ill talk to her one more time
EvDogg87: i would barf if she votes me out not because im out cuz yah that would be her smartest move
EvDogg87: but all her stuff about how she wants to make up for how she played early in the game
EvDogg87: and how she cried over it
EvDogg87: and all that, then to go and do it again
Jamison7538: yeah
EvDogg87: what did you say to her deal?
Jamison7538: Jamison7538 (7:30:03 PM): is it one of those things where you're setting it up so both people will take you so you dont have to try?
Buffy Zanzibar (7:30:12 PM): lol no
Buffy Zanzibar (7:30:15 PM): you know I'll try
Jamison7538 (7:31:10 PM): who are you voting out?
Jamison7538: i changed the subject :-)
EvDogg87: haha
EvDogg87: she didnt even hardly ask me to take her
EvDogg87: she was like oh so you and sheila will both take eachother right?
Jamison7538: ugh
EvDogg87: and i said i wasnt even sure and that we've never even really talked about it i would be fine with either way
Jamison7538: I swear to god if we won that veto for her last round and she votes your ass out, I'll be so livid
EvDogg87: i know
EvDogg87: im gonna find out if she's even thinking about voting for me
EvDogg87: and if she is im going to guilt trip the fuck out of her
Jamison7538: Buffy Zanzibar (7:35:14 PM): I want to tell him before someone else does. So, if I tell you will you not say anything?
Jamison7538 (7:35:33 PM): yeah
EvDogg87: oh boy
Jamison7538: Buffy Zanzibar (7:44:02 PM): because I feel like you and Nathan will take each other at the end no matter what
Buffy Zanzibar (7:47:54 PM): will you?
Jamison7538 (7:49:16 PM): not necessarily
Buffy Zanzibar (7:49:52 PM): okay nevermind
Buffy Zanzibar (7:50:00 PM): I'm not going to ask you for a deal
Buffy Zanzibar (7:50:09 PM): I hate this game
Buffy Zanzibar (7:50:13 PM): I really hate it
Jamison7538: what is she talking to you about?
EvDogg87: she's basically saying she needs to vote me out
EvDogg87: and im guilt tripping her hardcore
Jamison7538: good
EvDogg87: she just said she hates this game to me too
EvDogg87: Buffy Zanzibar (7:49:51 PM): ugh
Buffy Zanzibar (7:49:59 PM): I really hate this game
Buffy Zanzibar (7:50:47 PM): I feel exactly the same way I did before
Buffy Zanzibar (7:51:16 PM): you know what? I don't even care - you can Sheila can win and take each other
Jamison7538: YAY
EvDogg87: yeah i think i've got her
EvDogg87: EvDogg87 (7:52:27 PM): i dont get how you think that's sucha a guarantee
Buffy Zanzibar (7:52:46 PM): it's not a guarantee
EvDogg87 (7:52:48 PM): and speaking for myself, getting to the final 3 with my 2 best friends in the game is winning enough
Buffy Zanzibar (7:54:02 PM): You're right
Buffy Zanzibar (7:54:14 PM): I tried to look at this as "just a game"
Buffy Zanzibar (7:54:20 PM): and I obviously can't
Buffy Zanzibar (7:54:32 PM): I can't do this
Jamison7538: well she has 2 minutes to vote
EvDogg87: PHEW
Jamison7538: omg
Jamison7538: thank god

May 7, 2009 1:26:42 GMT -5 Sarah Hrejsa said:

I'm sure this brings back some memories for you. It was part of the reason I followed through with Operation Human Shield (as Howie called it since I was his dumbass shield in this plan). I figured that since you and Nathan knew I was telling Howie everything you didn't trust me anymore. At that point, I'm sure you knew Seb wasn't lying about Howie giving him that info. I thought it was just going to drive me farther on the outside and make you trust Nathan more than me. Was I correct?

Yes it made me trust Nathan more than you, and while it did make me trust you a lot less, I didn't like want to stop working with you or anything. It just made me want Howie gone more than I did in the first place.

[Sarah Hrejsa]

Okay, thank you, Sheila. So, you and Nathan did have a spoken final two the whole time, correct?

[Sheila Kennedy]

May 7, 2009 2:11:20 GMT -5 Sarah Hrejsa said:

Okay, thank you, Sheila. So, you and Nathan did have a spoken final two the whole time, correct?

No. lol. There was one point, I don't know how long ago, where he just told me "You're seriously my #1 at this point" and I just said "same" and I don't even remember if I was honest or if he was lol. But at some point he did become my #1 for real and I don't know where I was in his plans the whole time. You'd have to ask him.

Ok I guess I should say too that I did tell him on numerous occasions I think that I would take him to the F2 or whatever but I don't think we actually had a solid F2 deal.

[Sarah Hrejsa]

LOL actually I think you've answered both of your questions for me. Thanks.

[Nathan Marlow]

Nathan
I played a very emotional game, so it's only fitting that my questions also be emotional. I would say to you especially, but who knows what I will be rambling on about by the time I get to Sheila's questions?

You, of all people, know how much I let my emotional side rule what I did in this game - especially at the end. You mentioned that you were very creative in asking me to try to get Will to submit early in the Final POV. I did it, but at that point I still was not decided on which of you I was going to take. I felt pretty good about my chances of finding Natalie's pic and I wanted to have that decision instead of leaving it in his or your hands.

First, how confident were you in me keeping you at F4? And if you were 100% confident, did you think you had me wrapped around your finger for most of the game? You stated that not everything you did was personal. So, please tell me if you purposely used my weaknesses against me, including those 30 minutes after I told you I was voting you out, when I changed my mind at the last minute. I know everyone on the jury thinks you played me to get me to keep you, threw part II of the HOH so you wouldn't have to vote me or Sheila out, and felt very confident in being the one chosen at the end. I would like to know if this is true or not.

I do think I was overconfident about you keeping me. I knew it would be a possibility and it would surely cross your mind, but I didn't think you would get as close to doing it as you did. As I have said to you, we talked a lot about how terrible you felt after you went after Sheila and how unlike you it was, so I really didn't think you would ever go and do something similar to me. I didn't think I had you wrapped around your finger at all, I just didn't think you would do that. Throughout the later half of the game while we were growing closer, I don't think I ever really asked you to do all that much and we were both well aware that we had different motives and opinions on certain subjects, so no, you definitely were not wrapped around my finger, nor did I think you were. I guess you could say that I did use your weaknesses against you in those last 30 minutes. I knew what I had to do to get you to change your mind, or at least try, and I was surely going to try. Were the things I was saying a bunch of BS? Not for the most part. I really did feel the way I said I did, but at the same time, yes, I was in game mode. As for the final 3 challenges, I definitely did not throw either challenge. In part 2 I was actually ahead of Sheila coming into the last task and I simply did not follow the directions because I was in such a rush. If I was trying to throw it, I would not have put in such effort to actually get a lead. I did want to win that final challenge. It had been a while since I had won one and I definitely was not positive that I would be taken to the finals by both of you, or either of you even.

I ended up keeping you over Will because I felt that if I couldn't win I wanted one of you to win. I first wanted to get to the end with Howie (that went well lol) and after he left I wanted it to be Parker, and after Parker left I actually felt a little bit of relief that I wasn't in the middle anymore between You/Sheila and Parker/Jun. So from that point on I wanted the F3 to be you, me and Sheila...even though I felt that either of you would have taken the other one. You told me that you never made a F2 with Sheila and you were 50/50 on who you would keep if/when it came to that point. So, my next question to you is, was that bullshit or the truth? Would you have kept me or Sheila had you won the final HOH and why?

We really did never make a final two pact. As you know, she is not one to come out and talk about things like that. And as I have told you, I don't really like to either. I don't want to make a promise that I might not be able to keep. Final 2 is always such a long way away, and you never know what will happen to change things between now and then. Towards the end of the game I was getting really close with you and I wasn't ruling out going to the end with you. As much as Sheila and I did trust each other and were loyal to each other the whole game, it was hard for me to know how things would end up. I knew she was close with you too, so I didn't rule it out that she would want to go with you because voting you out is just about as big of a betrayal anyways. Both of you were a huge part of my game and helped me out so going to the end with either of you would have been great. I probably was leaning towards going with Sheila for most of the game though and I did exaggerate the possibility of taking you when my head was on the line. After that though was what really cemented it for me. You asked me if I was mad at you, and I said no, and I really wasn't, but I knew at that point that I would be taking Sheila. She had been completely loyal to me and could have gotten me out, and coming into the game I would have expected her to. There was just no way that I could vote her out when she never even wavered. Even still though, I was shitting bricks at the final eviction. I surely thought you two could have made a deal or something, there was plenty of time. And Sheila did say things to me that definitely eluded to her taking me, I don't remember us ever talking about it explicitly. I realize I kind of rambled a bit there... I think you rubbed off on me a bit, so I hope you can sift through and find what you wanted there.

Also, if you were a third party looking on and I asked you for advice in whether to be loyal and keep you at F4 or to vote you out and keep Will, what what advice would you give me? Please be detailed and explain your answer.

When I told you that I would consider being in the final 3 with my two best friends/allies to be winning, I meant it. I play these games for fun and for a challenge. I would have definitely done what you did. Winning an online reality game is just really not that big of a deal in the long run. Making it to the end with your crew and being like "Yeah we did it!" is more fun for me at least than kicking a friend to the curb just so I could maybe have a better shot at winning. If we were playing for a half mil... well I would probably have told you that voting me out is the better choice. It all just really depends on what is valuable to you. If you don't care about the relationships you make in these games then that changes everything. I know you do though, so that is why I would have advised you to keep me.

And finallyyyy please tell me what you really think of my ass? This WILL make a difference in how I vote. Thank you!

Girl please. You know it's bangin'. Double-bangin' really.

[Sarah Hrejsa]

Thanks Sheila and Nathan. I can't say this will be an easy decision but you have definitely given me a lot to consider. Good luck to you both!